I am murder when it comes to this blog, i write nothing when things are smiley! that makes sense though doesn’t it? i write when i am confused and right now i am not confused, thats not to say i don’t want to talk about how things are going even though they are great!

During half term i went back to loughborough, one last time with the lads, great weekend just a crap location! i can’t believe i thought loughborough was fun, well it was actually, just right now we are so much older. I was 23 at an 18th birthday party, it felt weird! it was good though one last drink before work kicked in one last blow out before i finally left my student days behind.

so now i have a working life. it feels like ive never been away, it feels like i never travelled and it feels like ive been working 40 years longer than the 3 weeks ive actually done. does that mean its right? i was told it was right, i took a year out and it felt like id never been away, it was right to leave and re join later on. I have so much on my mind right now, school takes up all my energy, i mean all my energy that means finding extra energy to do the fun stuff in life takes a little more effort. almost every weekend is booked, maria one week, family another and all the time trying to see friends and do other stuff at the same time! this is so hard, it was so much easier when times and meeting revolved around the pool bar opening or the tide being right for surfing! I cant complain though i finally got my first pay cheque and now i can afford to live a little.

it felt good to be able to pay off my debts, well some of them. at last i could buy a meal and a few drinks guilt free without having to set back something else i really wanted. the best thing about being paid and being a teacher, is that in 4 weeks i have 2 and a half weeks off! 6 days in morroco before christmas a few day with the family over xmas and edinburgh for NY eve! it cant be all bad, i am looking forward to the next month and the new year, in the new year il have a much better idea of what i want from life. so may ideas to run through, a masters, career choices or more travel, well we’ll see!

such a lame post really nothing is happening thought is not very deep, i just feel like i have the energy to think deep, well to write deep is the challenge becasue just right now i can’t stop thinking!