It’s all happening so fast!

This last 2 weeks has flown by and things in my life are unravelling at an alarming rate, I am being thrown challenges left right and centre. Just over 6 weeks ago I set myself the target of finding work and a place to live, neither of which i enjoy whatsoever, both of which I have managed to complete without massive amounts of stress.

Things begin to play on your mind though, when travelling it was great because i could just plan the next day and that was it, i really miss those days but i was never going to last forever. My head is spinning with thought, I am trying to plan every visit in my head, every move the steps ahead, from London to Wigan to Manchester and Loughborough. and in between I must find time to visit school and become inducted, i must find time to move into my new house, and I must do all the things in between.

The banks are a nightmare and the current economical crisis can’t be helping my cause. for the first time in my life I have had to go to my parents for a loan. I don’t feel ashamed, just slightly dependent. taking away my independence is like taking away my legs, I will always pay it back asap but in the mean time, thank you Dad! As far as the banks are concerned I couldn’t be much more out of luck, 3 credit cards, 1 expired card, 1 blocked since it was defrauded and another at its limit. 3 debit cards, 1 got stuck in a machine another i have no pin and while I wait there is money transferring into my 3rd but for now it is in the dead space in between accounts where noone can access it! on top of that noone will give me an overdraft or a loan. Im not sure if i missed anything, but there you go – I am way out of luck. on the upshot starting work this week means I will get paid for half term

My house is ideal for one reason only, it’s a 6 minute walk to work, and as I will be making that journey often that was important to me. It is however with a family, south african and there are 2 small children (and another tenant in another room). The floor space is not enormous and my room is of average size but for £100 pw in london this is what you get, mind, all bills are included with a TV and SKY coming into my room! I feel like I’m in the middle of no where as there don’t appear to be any shops around, that said Ealing is 9 minutes by bus so I can’t be that cut off, even if I do need to catch a bus to the local supermarket!

School or work, is still unknown territory for me, correspondence has been with a series of HR employees and a Senior teacher and each one of them appear nice, I do have faith in this school as I get a good vibe when ever contact is made. In the coming weeks I will put together a portfolio of work that will demonstrate my previous employments and this may lead to me getting a pay increase in my first year, so for that – fingers crossed. apart from that I have already considered my christmas holidays, Edinburgh for NY eve and I think a week away before xmas would also be nice too, perhaps NYC? I will wait for pay day then decide!

It hasn’t been hard but the stress is still there, finding a job and a house is a nightmare at any point and it certainly is a comedown from the beaches of the world. If you throw in the recent family revelations then it has the potential to send your head in a spin, and truth be told I havnt slept much recently, all through thought! I dont worry too much about most things, except I try to run them through my head – no wait, is that what worrying is? I’m not sure really, I just over think sometimes and prepare myself what is about to come, it’s quite annoying but then that is why i write these posts!

at the moment I am in some sort of limbo, until payday I cant afford to do many things, I have promised a few friends that I will see them, but that means transport around the country, money i just don’t have, I will make it happen though and if you are one of those friends that I have yet to see, then I will come and see you I promise, and as soon as I get comfortable with my new south african family you can always come stay with me!

Given I have talked about my work, my home, my finances, my family and my friends there is only really one part of my life i havnt talked about. that’s not to say there is nothing going on in this area, but if yo havnt guessed what im talking about, you may never know. Actually this too has put my head in a spin too. I have lightened up in recent years when it comes to girls (oops i told you what i was talking about), ive lightened up in a sense that what will happen will happen and I don’t try force anything, but when a girl creeps into your mind that you actually like then you can’t help but think hmm?! Just see how it goes i suppose, if anything at all!

So life as thrown a series of obstacles in my path, and all of them are there to overcome and the fact on the flip side of each and every obstacle there is something amazing waiting to happen means life is much more exciting. taking one hop at a time let’s see how things unfold, I anticipate many posts in the coming weeks!