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ive been ill this last week, but feeling better than ever – just 6 and a bit weeks to go, with tickets in hand and cash to follow on friday! then thats it im ready for off i could leave tomorrow i had booked the flights earlier…but no its ok il wait for you sarah! haha 
oh yeah and you too amy! i stil cant believe im off travellign with someone i have yet to meet i think she has more to put up with than i will, i dont envy her 
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I have our tickets anyway, they look more like ride tickets to blackpool pleasure beach but hey, if it gets me on that plane then thats fine with me!
It’s august soon and that will be weird, that means its almost over and about to begin, the let is up in 3 weeks – what i will do after that not too sure but hopefully i can hang around and work for a couple of weeks, im still holding out for the fact i want to stay out for 12 months and for that i will need another 2 grand or so in the next 6 weeks so not impossible a little tight.
my malaria tablets arrived too, one thing after another it is all falling into place. only 20 quid with delivery for 100 tabs, initial estimations being over 50 quid so i think ive done ok from that – stratford pharmacy online if anyone is in need of doxycycline! couldnt be easier. not sure what else is going on – got a few things to look forward too, not least my last friday here, should be good – and then a few days in cornwall again if that gets off the ground!
one thing that does amaze me is the comment, those lyrics are great, i love josh radin the problem is lyrics are usually right jsut not in the case of star mile, its te soundtrack to a movie which is an incredibly hopeful ending but sometimes life doesnt work like that, the rest of tracks are factastic though – stargazer great choice of email address but something tells me you knew to put that – when i was in cornwall ive never seen so many stars, the number of shooting stars was incredible,
unfortunately this is not an intimate enough post to reveak my wishes.
Ok, so the title is a lie by the end of this post i will have rambled about some really weird stuff no doubt but as ive said before that’s the idea of this, ramble and ramble until it makes sense or at least until you can read it back and think, did i really write that crap! so ive been thinkin loads lately how much fun it would be to write an anonymous diary, release your inner most thoughts without holding back on anything except maybe names and stuff like that on the slightest off chance that someone you know reads it! but i mean have a blog, a little like this and just post everything on it, what ever youre thinking, good and bad, nasty or complimentary with no holds barred! that would be fun – to say what you really think without offending anyone or embarrassing yourself, i might just do that – but maybe i already do?! the problem lies when people i know read this, im ok writing in my bedroom just flowing things outta my head but when people pass comment face to face it becomes a little…like…’you actually read that stuff’ then it almost puts me off, i tone down my posts a little.
whats more is emotion plays a massive part in this. three, four and five months ago when my head was spinning with allsorts of rubbish some really emotional stuff came out and i wasnt embarrassed to say it, now im a little less inclined to reveal all! maybe you should stop reading this – that would help – please from now on, noone is allowed to read my posts, ok? I never thought anyone would even bother but the fact that yuo are reading it now once again shows i have an audience, maybe its the second or 3rd time you have visited or perhaps more, why? i can get away with saying this becuase if noone reads it then fine nothing, but as my hit counter reaches 300 i know there have been nearly 20 in the last week…i know i know competing with ebay and facebook with hit rates like that!
but really what are you thinking? why dont you write something, ask a question…anything, if you know me or not, you dont have to leave your name or email adress it can be totally anonymous, i just want to know what drives you to read this, especially as i have told only a couple of people explicitly to read it.
1 week to pay day
3 weeks til my let is up and my parents come to london
7 weeks until i fly away
with lots happening in between im really looking forward to the next few weeks, it will be challenging due to working long hours, but lots of fun. on that note apologies to the 2 that came over to mine for a drink or 2 only to be entertained by me falling asleep after a couple of beers, shall be making it up to you this weekend hopefullywith a bit of sunshine!
oh the woman at work who absolutely horrible i cant stand being in the same aisle as her, she is so rude and talks to people like they are dirt…completely passive comment no need to think much of it i just wanted to shout out, how much i hate her…and there is noone else in the worl i can say that about, yes even the 2 that came close breaking me-you know who you are! all is forgiven.
it takes a lot to say that but i now genuinely believe this is not an emotional phase, the past is behind and the present is fun!!
you are still reading?
why?
Ask me out right il tell you no. there is absolutely no truth whatsoever in star signs and anything of that nature. yet i have a snippet on my wall entitled day of the rock…which describes me pretty accurately and i read the stars, often out of interest. there are 6 billion people in the world, how on earth can they all be described using just…not sure how many signs there are, but however many there are, how can we be catagorised!? whats more why do days vary so much?
the metro thursday 19th july
Have you stopped talking at any point today? its all very well being sociable but yuo have to listen as well as speak. Still with the moon in Virgo we’re too charmed to mind being ignored.
thelondonpaper friday 20th July
what happened in the past cannot be forgotten. It had after all shaped where you are now, But you appear to be looking- or clinging to a past event and wondering where you now stand. No magic wand can be waved to improve the situation overnight but developments underway now will do much to reassure you
google today Saturday 21st july
You may need to make a financial decision today that can have a great impact on your weekend. You truly want to do the right thing, but might err on the side of caution, thinking that you need to save your money for something more important than your own personal pleasure. Don’t sell yourself short; you deserve more than you realize.
ok so 3 different sources, but wow!
what an eventful 3 days! the fact that all 3 statements could mean anything you want is interesting enough, but the problem is you always apply them to a current situation…when really you should chuckle and say haha Cameron Diaz and I will have the same 3 days..yes she has my birthday too!
Ive been thinking about lots recently though almost too much too write down, thats what time on checkouts does to you, you think and replay events in your head over and over. but anyway, firstly apologies for the slow decline in spelling and grammatical errors, many are typos most are my instincts to write as i talk…if you know me its not perfect!
there are somethings sometimes you just can’t write, i have a dilemma at the moment – one i will solve because i always do but it just annoys me that out of morality alone i cant write it out, so i can see it infront of me, read it tomorrow and change my perspective on it. the thing is i could just ignore it and for me of course it will go away, i leave in 8 weeks. i dont want to though, i want to solve the problem, something im usually good at, but this will affect me too much, its hurt me or hurt someone else the way things are going…and as thelondonpaper said yesterday developments will reassure me and google today told me I am worth so much more.
Perhaps there has been truth in the stars all along. Although this has been said before not by the free papers or the internet but friends and now i know who to trust.
Mr murphy works 128.5 hours in 2 weeks, his body needs 12 hours sleep per day and his social life is none existent so plays no role in this equation. how many hours does he need to extend his week by to enjoy substantial rest and maintain friends with those around him? if the rate of exchange from british pounds to kenyan shillings is not very many to loads how many ccold beers on a beach in mombass will it take him to over come the fact that work is horrible?
part b) use your answer above to work out why his daily posts have declined over the past week
by the time you work out the answer to this i shall be drinking said beer and not giving much thought to any of it! the good news is i also handed my notice in at ASDA, smiles all around expecially after 3.5 tedious years! the catch is ive left myself an avenue of return should i need emergency cash next summer while schools are closed (always thinking me!) – so technically i have taken a career break which also means i get to keep my 10% discount card with no ibligiation to actually return at the end of my 12 month leave period – bonus!
I have had so much to think about this week, just generally been smiles all around with Jabs complete, bank accounts opened and malaria tablets ordered, even suncream and toiletries have been bought (ASDA special offers 
) just 8 weeks to go on saturday. technically i could finish work on the 11/12th august as that is when my leave starts but i know full well i will carry on working the hours i can, just scraping the last few pennies. the thing is i cant actually commit to work as i may have nowhere to live, and may not be able to afford it if there is not enough overtime! i will cross that bridge when it comes my way. The other thing is m parents are visiting – the first time they have stayed with me since leaving home 4 years ago, its going to be weird!
im beginning to think how long it will be before i stop posting here when away, i mean there are going to be so many other better options last thing i will want is to be sat in an internet cafe – but what about face book? im adicted its unbelieveable, within the past 3 days i have regained contact with a few of my old camp america friends absolutely smiles all around, its unbelievable, you add one person find someone else, you in turn are found yourself and before you know it feels like you never missed them! One guy im particularly pleased about is the guy on this website, im a big fan of his music
http://www.myspace.com/nathanburley have a listen i reckon youll like him!
other things i think about come from the creative source that is the Metro! we get it at work at about 4am so read it while others sleep. the problem is i read it then come home go to sleep and wake up, pick up a metro on the way to work and expect a new days news – it doesnt happen and it plays with your head big time…story to catch the eye today was…
more than 4 in 5 Britons believe their past is littered with wrong decisions and failures
If i give you the list and tell you honestly that i dont ever think i could play an instrument (that may be my only regret in 40 years) then i think im doing pretty well out of this list! ive either done, proudly never done – or about to do!!
Not learning to play a musical instrument (13%)
Not going to university (11%)
Not following a different career path (7%)
Not paying more attention at school (6%)
Being overweight/not taking better care of oneself (5%)
Regrets over relationships, usually after having had an affair (4%)
As this will no doubt be my last post, maybe not, then i may take this oppurtunity to say im fine! yeah im working loads yeah i may look tired and crappy but im fine il get over it – thanks for those showing concern but honestly il be smiling not too long from now! oh yeah i made up for last weeks shocker at rugby had 3 great games unfortunately had to cut my own team’s game short for work, we lost but more than held our own!!
8 weeks on saturday, just wait til i pick up our tickets then you’ll see me smiling!
Depending on what time i write this post my mood varies massively, right now im sooo happy- wana know why?
ever play a song that makes your eyes water, your body shiver and makes you grin from ear to ear? i just did it and didnt expect it at all. this happens when the song has meaning, radio ones live lounge (foo fighters – DOA the song in question), this is the album we played all weekend last weekend in cornwall, it was an amazing weekend, i want it to happen again so much.
I got sent off playing touch rugby, well technically it was a ‘voluntary sub’ which i didnt want to make so really i was sent off! ive been binned just once or twice in my whole life this makes three i think…what for you ask? being cheeky towards the ref! me sarcastic and cheeky? i dont think so :s. No i fully accept that i was totally out of order, i was only having a laugh with the ref who clearly wasnt amused.
ive really gotta stop being sarcastic but cant, its been my way forever – it really offends some people too. I never mean to offend its just the way it comes across and it annoys me as much as the offended as i cant really stop myself. well i suppose i must try.
Who gets sent off playing touch rugby?! That really annoyed me all night at work it did, and now i need a game off full contact just to get rid of the anger, instead i gotta go to work again!
once again im sleeping working sleeping working. It’s gotta be done, i know this but after 3 years it gets a little tedious, im looking for any out possible – thank god for touch rugby!
a social team to begin with – champions in the end, absolutely made up with that, i think it was karma. the teams that tried to hard failed, putting the rugby first obviously not the way to do it! anyway its game back on tonight and i have had a few weeks off – really looking forward to it!
I wonder what i will think raeding this 12 months from now, when hopefulyl il be in cambodia!
Not a lot has happened in the time since i wrote the last post, suffice to say that reality is kicking in now the weekend is long gone. the end of this month will give me about £5,600 and i would like nearer £7,500. So i need more work, i have just under 6 weeks until i am supposed to move out, may need to extend that now though and with a little luck £350 will come back through my deposit. so what do the remaining 60+ days have in store for me? Work and lots of it.
Jabs, when i started out i knew id need them but £200 quid has been a killer, also im still only half way through the course so ages to go but at least they are all paid for now
I really can’t wait, in a way I dont want to leave either, there is so much here for me in london – but deep down i know it will always be here, if not the same as now then very similar! so in 14 months i think il be back
I know my last post was like half way through may and it kinda renders a blog useless when noone posts so here is my way of trying to catch up with events, especialy as in 9weeks Il be using this to inform the world of my whereabouts and activities around the world!
I have said this a million times, this year has been the hardest for me. Emotions have been swinging around bouncing around in my head and it makes you do, say and think some strange things. that said without it happening how could you learn from the mistakes you make, and ive made a few. again we laern from our mistakes no matter how big or small, and right now i feel i am benefiting from everything i have ever done wrong in my life.
This year was about my girlfriend – 12 months ago that is. i was so close to being stuck within a bubble, a bubble i feel i was stuck in for about 18 months, but the sides are reflective, so you cant see out but people can see in, they have no way of communicating with you, warning you that – “Jason – your in a bubble”. as it happened none of this ever happened instead i embarked on the hardest course ever, with the ability to make new bubbles ones that can be popped and reopened, as a result ive got some great firends.
ive had some amazing, days, nights and weekends over the past year, each and every one have shaped the person i am now, something you dont realise until it has happened. this is my second summer in london, i want to enjoy it as much as i did the first.
9 weeks until i leave for africa, 1 year around the world, currently my main focus is earning enough money to survive, with just under £6,000 i am some way of my intial target of £7,500 soending money, i am stil confident i can make it with 9 weeks and 3 pay days to go. especially as most things are now paid for. 18 months of planning and just 9 weeks to go, the time has flown by. i am really looking forward to the morning i leave for heathrow, 15th september around 6am, after that the world will just slow down, time will not matter, the day or month will be irrelavent. will i ever want to come back?!
I have some things to plan, some questions to answer but it soon will be done and now as i will turn my attention to my trip, my writing will focus on this, 68 days….
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