Am I ready to leave all of this behind?

It’s strange the way your feelings can often be pulled apart by so many unknown forces. 12 months ago the only i wanted was to get out of this country. Even more so over christmas just gone, with the spiral i was in, I was angry at everything counting the days until I left the acadamy, counting the months until I left the country. A massive part of that was unwelcoming atmosphere inside the academy, and the toil of overwhelming emotions that was on offer through a break up. That said it was all worth it. Without that release I would not be where I am now, I would still be unhappy and feeling guilty for wanting to be happy. Every pain was worth it because now…

…now I don’t want to leave.

I could quite happily apply for a job at JKGTC. There are some fantastic people there who really do make you feel welcome. The students and the job has so many oppurtunities to explore and develop your own skills. On top of that I am still enjoying the atmosphere in London, there is someone new around each corner and someone old around the next. So the question remains am I really ready to leave all of this behind? Reluctantly yes, because I know deep down that this is something I really want to do, something I have already worked for incredibly hard, for over 6 months, with another 6 months to go. It’s still hard to not become attached though, perhaps it’s thoughs attachments that will make the trip home that so much sweeter.